This chapter explores how feminist criticism’s valorization of agency has at times erased disabled women’s accounts of bodily and mental pain. While praised in feminist circles, the concept of recovery, in particular, exists in tension with disability studies’ refusal of narratives that privilege ability. In framing this interrogation of recovery as a crip feminist practice, I turn to disabled women’s life writing, which charts how recovery’s normalizing impulse threatens to either misrepresent or overlook women’s impairments. Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s “The Yellow Wall-Paper” (1892), Audre Lorde’s The Cancer Journals (1980), Anne Finger’s “Helen and Frida,” and Leslie Jamison’s The Recovering (2018) redefine recovery as living with and alongside disability rather than in spite of it.

Despite both its rhetoric and its intentions, activism is often ableist. A contemporary project to crip feminism is fundamentally epistemological and requires re-evaluating the state of embodiment, forms of social justice, and choices towards which we understand ourselves to be moving. Disability scholars seem increasingly interested in studying not just what we read (a matter of representation) but how we read and how narrative is formulated (a matter of knowing). Many recent imaginative works by women take up illness and disability not as classic metaphors for limitation and disenfranchisementor even just to create realistic portrayalsbut as specifically and emphatically phenomenological modes of engaging the world. With readings of Chicana feminist fiction (Ana Castillo), graphic memoir (Alison Bechdel) and black speculative fiction (Octavia Butler), I argue that the body under duress becomes a source of rewriting the terms under which identities and social relationships are defined. In this sense they speak and write directly into a moment in which it is the capacity to think courageously, and expansively, about what things 1mean that we must rigorously safeguard.